self love

This week I have been focused on self-love as planetary healing and responding to deterrents from this. In presence, what does the role of voice play? In presence, what does the role of consciousness play? In presence, what does the role of listening play? How do we create change that does not lead back to the initial state of oppression and separation?

I have found that the source of motivation must be Love otherwise the source of pain perpetuates itself. I am using ‘Love’ in an expansive way – one that speaks to the energy of everything: Source, Tao, Chi, God, Life, Death, Birth, Dreams, and Cycles.

When I empathize; the neurons in my body mirror that which I am present with. The present state alters with consciousness. Therefore I literally have the agency to generate feelings of wellness within myself based on what I focus on.

Perhaps the issue of separation is like a forest maze deep within the collective psyche, and the source of vitality is like the water that keeps the forest alive and ever changing.

In the film Gabbeh, I saw a story of the ethereal spiritual realm weaving reality through dreams, art, expression, and a state of being in community where mind and matter are one.

This week I listened to Isha Judd talk about love-consciousness. She talks about living from the heart instead of the mind. She talks about ideas and how they grow and that when we attach to an idea and identify with it is where we loose our true nature of being Love.

This week I listened to Claudia Castro Luna: Washington State Poet Laureate at The Evergreen State College. She said, “art and beauty belong to no one, it is boundless and each one of us is capable of creating it”.

I spoke with a friend about cultural appropriation, art, and consumer culture. It left me thinking about how emotions of shame, doubt, fear, and manipulation block the ability to create with Love. How do we reconnect with the source of Love in our-self and for our-self so that we actually have the capacity to respond with Love?

The act of reconnecting to myself, to forgiving and Loving myself is an act of stretching my imagination, and being open to new perspectives. It has been about shifting perspective, about digging into my subconscious and reaffirming my Love for myself, and being in this Love at every moment. I am beginning to be able to notice when I step out of this and give my power away to other people, when I step into their projections and begin to believe false narratives about myself. The truth is that only I can create my narrative. One moment of experience can happen and there are infinite ways to describe this in words, symbols, and interpretations based on what I am focusing on. My empowerment comes from being aware of this. What to focus on is my choice. I choose to Love. This way of being allows me to have healthy boundaries and to have the capacity to Love others. We are all connected. In this connection I only have control of my-self and my own awareness. When I Love my-self I am also Loving the things outside of me through the fact that we are connected.